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Thursday, March 15, 2007

i decided i would try reviving my blog a little. maybe at least a post a month, whenever i remember. i mean, THATS GOOD NEWS RIGHT.

oh shoot im getting the feel that im very different after getting back from gb camp. too weird. weirder than the difference between me online and me IRL. ohwell. ahwell. GAHHwell. but at least im not as emo (not in THAT way) and depressed as in the previous post. still not drawing much though.

sidenote. BELIEVE THAT I POSTED, DEAREST UNBELIEVING TAGGERS! and jyochi, the sunglasses are of no use now. i am blinded already! *another blinding light proceeds to shine over my face*

anyway. moving on... well i really have to say that i hate school. i cant imagine anyone who could love it in its cruel, torturous entirety. however i DO know that seemiin likes it~ she said except homework and blahblahblah though. anyhoo, the one really ironic thing is that i dont seem to mind it all that bad when im IN school, but once i get home it just feels like i wasted my day and "now im gonna have to waste more time on homework when i dont feel like doing it." GAH. emoing again. nonononono.

...digressing... to more interesting issues than school.
i would like to think about... the issue of cosplaying in singapore, as well as later on, having the dream of becoming a mangaka/seiyuu/anime director or whatever? in a small city like singapore.

cosplaying. sometimes i think that its just for anime fans that are too into it, really. but sometimes i find myself wanting to try it out two. (omg affected by gb camp and mtv. ohwell ignore this.) jyochi's started, or is trying to, btw, and i dont really find it all that... suitable for the likes of me, anyway. for example im FAT AND UGLY (but not a FYG lawl. just ask my dear friends.) according to me, and totally introverted such that taking pictures is not something i would do unless totally necessary.. kinda. and my social interactions with others is so off that i still don't have many close friends. as to how many i have now, you can guess. and have fun. oh shoot im really digressing from the topic now. and unintentionally too.
but anyway the cosplaying scene in singapore is growing, but as jyochi termed, ALL ARE UGLY. even Chibi at EOY convention '06 TT__TT (mourns for edo) my bro even said it was their escape, which is quite reasonable. which is why, to prevent myself from further shame, i am NOT so stupid as to cosplay for others to see. and get photographed and SCREAM WHEN I SEE MY FUGLY SELF IN A PHOTO SOMEWHERE ONLINE. oh wait but thats assuming people WILL take pictures. that is entirely unlikely, lwll.

as for the (what i happen to be on the verge of terming) naive dreams of becoming mangaka/seiyuu/whatever else that fits in singapore, i really don't have much to say.. or maybe i do, but yeah. the possibility is so low that all these years i only know of one established singaporean mangaka known quite internationally (celestial zone, which i dont even read.) , and as for seiyuus, nothing. i mean, its quite sad, but it cant be helped, not really, not when otakus are despised in japan, and singapore's anime scene has yet to rise up. see, theres no akihabara yet. sunshine plaza is abit closer but ... yeah. i once dreamed of being mangaka/seiyuu, but seeing as to how my art sux, and even the english voiceovering sux in singapore (gahh they keep reusing dubbers D<), although i happen to know *some* accents (aka change of voice/tone) and have interest, its not very possible to have it as a job.

also considering how highly regarded i just oh so happen to be (cos of school/grades/whatshidlar) when its not deserved, not to brag but the rate its going i might even be overqualified ORZ. srsly.

which is why i've thought of becoming a translator of course. but if i continue being a stupidshit not knowing how to translate real live voices and stuff, ill just end up translating boring stuff on paper.

enough ranting for a post of the month, dont you think? :D
[it seems i open up more online. takes off the stress of me imagining countless situations i might be thrown in, or rather WORRY. how ironic, those sentences.]

shadowangel @ 9:45 AM.