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Sunday, February 25, 2007

i recently realise how weird i must have been a few years back. after all primary school didn't go quite that well for me. and for those who knew me but didnt know that, its still probably my fault.

another fact: GAH MY LOGIC IS IMPROVING. meaning, in other words, my general understanding of math/science concepts. (or so i feel, cos the exams are not yet but almost here.) and if i were normal i would actually be happy (especially in rgs or for any other possible reason you would think of), but im not. cos you see, artistic skill decreases when logic increases, unless you're an all rounder or something. and i am apparently not. still, it is a good thing in a way. i dont hate it but i cant say i totally like it. i already feel dead about my deviantart account and my drawing in general, and this makes me feel worse.

japanese CA on tuesday, i am so dead. (this is when seemiin [NOT MIIN], kaiyuit, and whoever else starts protesting for some unknown reason.) history is also around the corner (though i cant say im sure when cos i think i stone at the worst times even when i feel like im actually listening)

oh. yeah. i havent really ranted about stepmania even up till now, but ITS A FUN THING TO DO WHEN YOU'RE BORED. especially when you're bored. `cos you get to finger-dance (keyboard DDR) to all the songs you want to dance to, including anime. of course, thats only if you know where to get the songs.

speaking of which, its unbelievable but i think im getting sick of the songs i play. (even though i still rarely/have never gotten AAA grade for a standard, if i rmb correctly? or maybe its cos i always play heavy/hard mode.) anyone have an idea where i can download more recent english songs? (more of pop, light rock and not so hip hop or heavy metal or sth.)

btw, my bro got an iPod video! (or i think it is? only available in black or white..) and all he needs is to convert files and he can play anime on the bus, MRT train or any other #$&^! convenient place. DDDDD::< urayamashii naa~

haha, my friend (jyochi on dA) is planning to cosplay in an SOSdan (suzumiya haruhi-related, for the uninitiated.) for cosfest! anyone know the confirmed date yet, btw?? if i ever get slim enough, i would probably want to try, except i never know my reaction to cameras. *pokes self* also, its kind of an expensive hobby. and its like only once or twice a year for the poor ppl in s pore!! (i almost typed singapore, but S. Pore aka Spore is more interesting.) shes still learning the ending dance and song, and im trying to be extra and random and bug them to improve when im totally slacking and not involved (lwl)

gah, mentioning jyochi makes me think of how untalented i am. *is blinded by strong light emanating from jyochi* but jyo, if ur reading this (i doubt so), you really should try to be a wee bit less ahlian. *is trying to be tactful to no avail* (oh, but even i didnt realise i was ahlian back in my 'innocent' stupid days. oh wait, im still stupid arent i?) but i guess since you apparently dont seem to mind, it doesnt matter all that much.

fun fact #3= i am easily influenced o(_ _)o Orz
and judging from an informal survey carried out on random people, it doesnt look too good. and the fact that i only just managed to put my finger on it is quite bad. in fact, i have noticed it over the years, but never quite managed to name the problem. i guess my will became really weak after primary school. after all no one likes to hang out with a low-EQ fatso or something. but i do remember i was pretty aggressive when i thought the way to go with handling insults was to hand it back to them in the face. much like pi.

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i was just thinking about what i would be in the future. i do predict i would make quite a lot of stupid mistakes that i always seem to regret whether i do or dont do anything. like i always wanted to draw well for others and myself (aka become an artist??) when i was a kid, but when it comes down to it i dont seem determined enough cos its too challenging or something? and im not all that creative unless a brainwave hits me and i get inspiration like a flash in the pan.

or i could always become a linguist (whatever it is..) or translator or something?!?!??!?! which is unlikely in some ways. but i do realise i quite understand jap--> engish and vice versa in some cases when i watch anime or jdrama or whatnot, and i even find problems with the subs or translation at times. what's more, i rant. okeh maybe thats a good and bad thing. the only thing is, i have never really talked to a native speaker in japanese. (even if i have tried, i get nervous cos i open up very, ve r y s l o w l y .) hence i would conclude that maybe i could HELP with fansubbing at first, then move on to maybe official subbing for the VCD/DVD production companies, and finally (if even possible at all) live translating, or if i really cant do nothing for nuts, just translate manga. but this is of course mostly only if my interest in anime and manga sustains. which i really cant be sure as i get busier and busier with @$^&#* school. and for the clueless, i hate school so its not really a very beneficial deal.

any other ideas?
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that was a long rant. man, i only remember to blog when im in church with nothing to do but wait for my parents to finish >[

randomness ensues. (?)

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shadowangel @ 1:40 PM.